Someday, you would like to disconnect from the world and hide. It helps with thinking and gives you more perspective. These days are the ones that open your creative brain and make you think out of the box. I call it lazy days.
I want one or two days in a week to be lazy days when am on my own. I have been writing and reading frequently in the past. I feel due to so much travel, multiple timezone switches, and eating out, I am losing that creativity.
It feels like I have stopped thinking and living on some kind of autopilot. This is a cycle and I need to break it soon.
I feel as we grow old, the responsibility of growing up ceases independence. It can be from thinking, living, and being with oneself. You are tossed into a world with multiple egos to deal with, and multiple scenarios to tackle. In short, uncertainty to the max.