Dayan

Bahar mat Jana(don’t go out), screamed my maasi. I was five years old then and, I had kajal smeared over my forehead as a protection toolkit from bad omen.

Those days killing of widows on the pretext of Dayan was common. It was a piece of daily news. Was it a way to get rid of old women from our society or, was it an easy way to get revenge on someone or their family?

A few years later, I asked my maasi why she made me stay indoors even in the daylight. She replied: Bahut Dayan hai yahan(There are too many witches in this village). She does not want anyone to know that she has a visitor, a young boy.

My maasi shared some stories and a few incidents which have made the existence of Dayan more real.

Last year for consecutive months, most newborns died within a few weeks of their birth. The village panchayat sent for a Tantrik who identified eight women as witches. The villagers punished them and, the death of newborns came down significantly.

My maasi always stayed away from her village during ten days of Durga Puja. She says those ten days are most active for the Dayans(witches). Their superpower can do anything like converting a tree into an Arial riding machine.

Many villagers saw women dancing in the Kabristaan holding a newborn corpse. They were more in action during moonless nights. Some villagers reported a loss of eyesight and voice because of Dayans.

I have not visited Maasi in twenty years. She visits us.

meaning

Most of us live miserable life. Some die from childhood to old age and work like a bonded slave. The quest for seeking meaning or purpose in life does not exist for us most.

We are running a battle called life, where all we are trying to stay afloat. The time we have is to figure out where will the next meal come, how to get a daughter married.

The quest for Roti, Kapra, and makaan are above everything else. We have no time for finding the meaning of our life.

Injury

I have been regularly running for over six years now. It has been more of a meditation for me and helps with clear thoughts. I am not a gym person and quit cycling as well after a morning riding accident.

I have been in on and off knee pain because of running. Last week I consulted a doctor and got to know about runner’s knee along with vitamin deficiency. It seems like I will be just walking for the next 6-8 months along with swimming.

This injury makes me realize the importance of technique. I have just been running all this while with a good pair of shoes. The more I am reading am realizing what all our body, the knee goes through when we run.

lead

Can you lead with fear or putting guns on the head of your team? Isn’t a team is about working together for a common cause?

The modern world runs on money. People join and leave for better money. But how long can money subside over shitty work conditions or treated like a slave with a gun on the head?

I understand some of us are in dire need of money because of the liability and external expectations. But for how long will this life continue?

There will be a day when we end up quitting everything and thinking back about the time of our life and realizing what all we lost because of the rat race.

We have to define and lead our own short life.

want

Our desires have no limit. If we start writing a bucket list, most of us will end up filling a few hundred pages. It is good to have a bucket list. But what happens to us when these lists end up being unmet?

Does it make us love the world and people around us less?
Does it end up making us more pessimistic towards our life?

Is it worth living a life in pain, sorrow, or pessimism because of our unmet wants?

face

Many of us are contributing to society in our unique way. They don’t need limelight, hashtags, or fan following on a social media platform. They are just contributing.

Be it a hotelier, offering leftover food to shelter home, or school kid dancing on tunes for collecting charity. There are many more teaching kids for free.

Many of these faceless contributors to our society are making an impact. They are just contributing, silently without a face. They don’t care about the limelight but more about what keeps their ultimate purpose in life.

It doesn’t take a pond to feed one human.

special

We are all special in our tiny little world. Our world is our imagination, aspirations, and zeal of not giving up. When we start seeking within, questioning ourselves, that is when the magic happens.

We don’t need a self-help book or a therapist to tell us our purpose of existence.

Tesla dies poor; Van Gogh died in melancholy and, Beethoven produced a masterpiece being almost deaf.

Interview

We have been interviewing interns for two-quarters of paid internships. I have been noticing a trend in most of the CVs: AI and Data analytics.

I am not going to blame the students as they are just getting out there and acquiring familiarity. What worries me is almost everyone wants to do AI and, most have the same tasks finished: most cases running few pre-existing models or data dashboards taught in online courses.

AI and Data analytics are much more than running some example code.

I remember how we had a Linux user group in our days and regular mentoring sessions. We were taught and guided about the core. With the emergence of the internet, mostly LUGs are dead.

Another worrisome trend is students are hoarding internship certificates. What knowledge will one get in 2 months? We have been offering it for 5-6 months.

We have got a few aspiring folks after four-five dozen interviews. We have room for a few more.

content

How much is enough? Will this realization going to come anytime soon? Why are we running like a headless chicken towards one goal post to another? 

Our life was supposed to be lived peacefully with our dear ones around. But it seems the opposite. We are living isolated, working like a robot, buying all the worldly pleasures. We are making money but not enough time for our aging parents or growing child. 

Money is in abundance, but are we content? All this money is of what use when we are losing ourselves and getting more sick, isolated in earning it. Is there an end to wealth creation? 

How Much Land Does a Man Need?

think

Can we think like free-flowing water without the bias of the past?
Can we see every adversary as an opportunity?
Can we not let the past blind us and make us like/trust the world less?
How much do we have to compare our journey with the rest?
Are we not different? As in our identity, consciousness?
Why are we letting ourselves go bonkers over what has not worked earlier?
How can we know about the depth of a river without swimming inside?